Waiting.

Cher monde, 
I'm starting to realize how much I regret not keeping up with blogging/journaling these last few months. So I am going to try again. :) 
This morning started out with church, as I sat there singing with these precious saints, in a different language. I felt overwhelmed. Despite everything, language barriers, different cultures, skin colors, you name it... we were worshiping the exact same God. and it was beautiful.  These last few weeks have been hard, the Lord has been showing me things about myself that aren't easy. I need to let go of everything, and just hold on to God. Stop worrying about the future, and just seek His will for today. I don't have all the answers, and I don't know what tomorrow holds, but it's ok because He does. And there is such peace in that. 
I'm the kind of person that just decides I am going to do something without thinking it through, or really praying about it. I start talking about doing it, I start telling everyone I'm going to do it, and I never take the time to face the reality of what I'm saying. And I am usually wrong, and I have made many,many mistakes. Luckily for me I serve a merciful, patient,loving God who always takes me and tells me " Just trust me" "Stop worrying" "It's all under control". I have zero patience, and waiting has never been my strong point,but it seems to be what he is teaching me these days" Just wait. Quit making your own plans. Trust me. Wait, and it will all work out. " 
So I am really praying that the Lord will give me contentment in today, even if it means I'm not doing nursing or getting married. It might mean just cleaning the house. loving on my little brothers, or even serving my parents coffee. If it's His will for today,  it's all going to be alright. and it's exactly what I need to be doing.